Friday 02/04/10 – note the time delay in post – Good Friday

Well guess what?  I was awake between 3-5.30am last night!  Bummer.  Was it the homoeopathic remedy Carc or auto-suggestion?  Doesn’t really matter at this point as I still feel stuffed either way!

It felt really weird this morning.  For the first time that I Can remember I didn’t have a hot cross bun for breakfast on Good Friday morning.  We shall see how well I handle all the chocolate around, not to mention the birthday celebrations (and cakes) for my 10 year old’s birthday.

Kitty and Matrix Regeneration Therapy

I saw Kitty yesterday afternoon and had a Matrix Regeneration Therapy and light and sound on my lungs, then on my solar plexus to harmonise.  Interestingly, after the lung treatment I felt phlegm rise in my throat that I had to clear out.  Kitty mentioned that that was something thing might happen as the lungs were clearing themselves.

Interesting Dream

I had a really interesting dream a couple of nights ago after my emotional sessions with Kitty and Sally.  Obviously lots of stuff is coming to the surface for me to deal with. Here is the dream:

My husband and I were living in a 3 storey house in London that had a garden out the back.  It was a rustic / overgrown / natural type garden with  mounds and hillocks.  There was a pool in a pool house (ie. the pool was enclosed).

I was walking in the pool that was contained by the walls of the building (ie. no paving around pool).  Some other kids were there.  I spoke with the agent who said we had to move out in March – I had 1 child and was pregnant with our 2nd.

While the conversation with the agent happened, 2 of the boys had opened the door to the pool house and the whole of the pool water had emptied out, running down and around a hillock.

I didn’t notice until it was all gone and saw the door flapping.  When I went outside I saw water disappearing into the ground.  I said to the boys “Do you know what you’ve done?  You’ve cost us about $1000 in water and things”.  I wasn’t yelling and screaming, more saying this with disbelief.

Mum was then driving me with the baby in the car.  There was no left indicator, and Mum thought that she’s been pulled over by a cop.  She stopped next to an island in the road that had petrol pumps.  It was my husband who appeared on the other side of the island and filled his car.

I looked up in the sky and saw jet-streams and then heaps of planes flying in a holding pattern.  The holding pattern was like a road system a child would make out of their cars – all straight lines and 90 degree angles and multiple lanes.  Ambulances were coming up to the planes in one section that looked like a bus port (but for planes) and ferrying off something from the plane. The end!

Houses tend to indicate a person (me in this case) – 3 storeys being the conscious, unconscious and the subconscious part of the mind. The water part in the pool represents emotions and the boys ‘opened the floodgates’.  Interestingly, the water did not damage anything; it simply followed the natural course of the land and soaked into the ground.  I take from that that it is okay to have all these emotions surfacing and that they will not cause devastation in my life.

However, in the dream, as soon as I recognised the water gone, I made the comment about ‘how much it cost!’ In the words of a good friend, straight out of my heart and into my head!  To top it off, I then saw all the planes in linear holding patterns (very ordered, logical) again maybe reflecting the comfort zone of my head / thinking patterns.  But, lo and behold, I have ambulances coming up to plane-ports (like bus-ports) and then ferrying off something from various planes.

I think there is a big lesson for me in being conscious of how much time I spend in thought, rather than allowing myself to trust and work intuitively from the heart and my emotions.  I think there’s more to this dream, but for now this will do!

I think it is interesting to look at our dreams as signposts …… have a look at yours and see what they are raising.  They can be things that give us clues to help us in our lives.

Metaphysical Reasons for Nausea

Yesterday when I saw Kitty I made her aware of my feeling of nausea that were coming up as I was trying to release the old anger, guilt, resentment etc (see blog post of May 7) and she indicated that as challenging as it is, nausea can be linked to Oedipal issues.  Man, did that one make me do a double take!  Talk about a sneaky curve ball.  It doesn’t feel right to me, but I’ll sit with it and see …..

I thought that the nausea simply represented resistance to what I was trying to shift (think I like that explanation better!).  While that can be part of it, it may highlight an aspect of my relationship with my Dad, whereby he was my shining light during Mum’s poor health in my early childhood.  As a young child, maybe I resented Mum taking up Dad’s time when he came home from work (not that I am aware of that happening).  All is supposition from this point in time, but it would make sense from the perspective of a 3 year old wanting attention (as 3 year olds do)!

I have a very strong and loving memory of my early childhood with Dad where I would sit on his lap in front of the stereo, listening to Strauss waltzes – just something we did.

I just thought of another thing.  My best friend, Adriana (Age), was killed in a high speed police pursuit (she was riding her bicycyle and the stolen car hit her and killed her instantly).  She was 28 and I was 27 at the time.  I got the news at about 6pm, called Mum and Dad to tell them and put off our dinner engagement and went to be with friends who were also close to Age.

At one point later in the evening though, I remember calling Mum and Dad.  I just wanted to talk to Dad, no-one else.  Interesting.  He was my rock, again.  That must have been so hard for my Mum as I probably shut her out completely at that time.  I’m so sorry Mum, I was just trying to cope at a time of great shock.  I am so grateful that my relationship with my Mum is so much stronger now.  She is an amazing role model, one of my best friends and I love her dearly.  If I can be half the mother to my children that she was to me, then I’ll be doing well by my kids.

Interestingly that Adriana and her death came up on a day when lung clearing was taking place from the treatment with Kitty.  Metaphysically, the lungs are associated with grief, so the connection is easy to see.

So, although Kitty’s explanation didn’t feel correct for me, not dismissing it allowed me to look at some events from a different perspective….. the ol’ don’t through the baby out with the bath water!  So, a lesson for us all …. don’t dismiss things out of hand that challenge your thinking, but sit with them for a bit.  Then,  trust your own internal guidance system above that which comes to you externally.  Feel what is right for you!

A timely quote from Abraham-Hicks:

Everything is valid and everything is truthful, because Law of Attraction lets everything be.  The question is not whether it’s right or wrong, whether their approach is right or wrong, or whether my approach is right or wrong.  The question is: Does their approach feel good to me?  And if it doesn’t, then I choose a different approach.

—Abraham

Excerpted from the workshop in Los Angeles, CA on Sunday, August 2nd, 1998 #439

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